A sad time here, no joy, no sharing. The atmosphere is stale. As a mother I could not put up with the living on eggshells. That is what life was like between his outbursts, his father’s outbursts and his brother resenting him. Just too much friction in the family. With all the doctor’s visits I was always away from home, well one week every month away. I can see where they are coming from when they say.. I do everything for him. But I saw no other alternative. I often told my other son, if it had been him I would have done the same. I love them both dearly.
I tried the stand back approach and see what happens. After a few weeks he was living on the street. Broke my heart to know that he wasn’t welcome at home by family members. I just wanted to shake him to get him to realize what he was doing to his own self let alone the ones who care about him. Makes me wonder in today’s society how low does your self-esteem have to get to be at the bottom. Broke, hungry and the writing is on the wall that this would lead to no good. He is only 17 for goodness sake, out there with who knows who influencing him and putting silly things in his head. So I after consultation with his father, I asked him to come home, with a few changes. We did not use the word “rules” for obvious reasons. Sadly, it only lasted a week before tempers flared. It was very evident that the three men in my life can not live under the same roof!! I am sick of hearing repeatedly “it is a rooster thing”. Something I wouldn’t know about. I have always been the cog in the family, but the stress is becoming to much for me to handle.
Everything I do is life is for someone else.. seemingly. I don’t consider that a bad thing, or is it?
The Good, the Bad and the Ugly!! 